The last few weeks have been a period of reflection for me. They’ve caused me to go inside and take stock of my feelings, projections, beliefs, and community around me. I’ve looked at the constant cycles of information, sometimes contradicting themselves, invoking fear and behavior changes, questioning how we got to this place. I’ve been peeling back the layers of my own fear and questioning why they exist, who they belong to, and how to let them go. I’ve also been looking at the things I’d like to see change in the world and what, if any, place I have in making that change happen.
Why am I interested in helping people?
Why have I made it my mission to help others with health and wellness?
Why do I think it’s so important for people to be empowered in their health and armed with as much knowledge about their bodies as possible?
Why is it important to take control?
I’ve gone inside because I’ve had to. I reflect on the struggles I’ve had with health and how I hope for others to not experience the same. I reflect on the things I’ve seen with others and stories I’ve heard about their journey and wonder if it had to be like that. I see the strain on the current medical system given our global circumstance and wonder why the system has been set up in such a way. To hear conflicting guidance in some cases, invoking fear and confusion which has honestly made me extremely mad. One of the things I really want in the world is to stop using fear as a weapon. I want you to embrace fear when you know it’s stopping them from pursuing your dreams or moving forward in life. I also want you to question when fear is projected upon you. Question whether your perception is your true perception or if it’s that of someone else’s. What I want is for you to be intune with your body enough to know when something is off. I also want for you to know how many resources are available to you outside of the norm of pills.
I want a world that knows about oils, energy, natural solutions, and possibility. That the little voice in your head can be a friend if you let it guide you to your intuition. I want you to know that you’re cared for and that it’s possible to care for yourself just as easily, if not better, than someone with a title. I want you to embrace connection with yourself and others in the spirit of compassion, love, and caring just because. I want you to feel free to play when you want to and express yourself without the fear of judgement of others. I want there to be hope, truth, support, and community.
I didn’t realize that when I started this journey it would be to help myself first. To see the systems and constructs for what they are and aren’t. And to also see the same of people. To understand what the human body can withstand encompassing the entire spectrum of good to bad. That I’ve had to see the darkness of loneliness, pain, fear, disappointment, unknown and lies to get to the light. To get back in communion with my body by clearing out the things that no longer serve it. To learn to fall in love with my body for its strength and resilience, and really learn to take care of it and listen to what it wants and needs. And to give it those things when it asks. To know that it will never let me down no matter what anyone else wants to tell me.
I am grateful for this reminder, in light of our current circumstance. That, because of my own journey, I can help with the tools to help others find some peace and light during this time. This is personal for me and this is necessary to remember my why. For you and for me.